Wednesday, November 15, 2017
2017 CDH1 T-Shirt Sale is Here!!
We are so excited to kick off our 2017 t-shirt sale and start accepting orders! This shirt was designed by my amazing cousin-in-law, Kristi Sasser. I mean, she is seriously talented and we are so lucky she always jumps in to come up with these awesome creations! We will be accepting orders for the next two weeks (until November 30th). Like last year, you can pay myself, Nicole, Rhonda, Benny Jo or any of our other family and friends in person with cash or check or you can pay via PayPal or Venmo. We will offer shipping across the United States and all over the world again, last year we shipped to Canada, Australia, and New Zealand. Last year we sold about 150 shirts and sent $1500 to Dr. Guilford's at the University of Otago where he is working on an oral medication to kill off mutated stomach cells in patients with a CDH1 mutation, eliminating the need for future generations to undergo a prophylactic total gastrectomy. We would love to surpass 200 shirts this year and send over $2000 for this vital research. All the options and pricing info is included in the picture below, but please feel free to message me on Facebook or email me at jessica.j.sasser913@gmail.com if you have any questions.
Tuesday, November 14, 2017
2017 Night of Healing
So we were incredibly honored to share our journey with CDH1 and total gastrectomies Saturday night at No stomach for Cancer's Night of Healing. Here is a video of our speech that night. As we mentioned during our talk, we believe God chose us for this and perhaps it was show others that their is hope for a wonderful, happy, healthy life after such a major surgery and lifestyle change.
What's So Special About November?
In the month of October it's so
wonderful to see all the pink ribbons, pink socks on NFL players, pink hair
extensions, and all things pink to raise awareness for breast cancer. Having
lost our mom to lobular breast cancer, October has always been a special month
for us to see people celebrate those who have battled this awful disease and
honor those whose lives were cut short by it. But for the past two years the
month of November has taken on a special meaning to us too. You see, November is
stomach cancer awareness month.
Let’s talk about stomach cancer for a second. Most people probably don’t spend their lives worrying about stomach cancer. In fact, you probably only worry about “the biggies.” According to the American Cancer Society here are the top 10 cancer diagnosed in the United States:
Let’s talk about stomach cancer for a second. Most people probably don’t spend their lives worrying about stomach cancer. In fact, you probably only worry about “the biggies.” According to the American Cancer Society here are the top 10 cancer diagnosed in the United States:
- Breast
- Prostate
- Lung
- Colorectal
- Uterine
- Bladder
- Melanoma
- Thyroid
- Kidney and Renal
- Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma
For many of these we have
guidelines in place for monitoring and recommendations for how to prevent them;
no smoking, wear sunscreen, limit use of hormonal birth control, etc. An average person really only has about a 0.8%
chance of being diagnosed with stomach cancer in their life. So why worry about
something you have such a low chance of ever developing? Because stomach cancer
is incredibly deadly. Even though the actual incidents diagnosed are so low, it
actually has the third highest mortality rate. Only about 30% of patients will
survive past the 5 year mark. And that’s only the stats for here in the US.
Globally, stomach cancer is the fifth leading cause of cancer and the third leading
cause of cancer deaths, with only about 10% of patients surviving past the five
year mark.
Why is stomach cancer so deadly you
may ask? It’s because most patients are either asymptomatic (showing no
noticeable signs) or have nonspecific symptoms in the early stages, symptoms
that can be written off as other things, like heartburn or a nagging stomach
bug. For most patients, by the time symptoms occur the cancer is often in
advanced stages and has metastasized to other areas of the body. What are the symptoms
you may ask? Early cancers may be associated with indigestion or a burning
sensation like heartburn, abdominal discomfort or loss of appetite. Advanced
cancer can cause weakness, fatigue, bloating of the stomach with meals, nausea and
occasional vomiting, diarrhea or constipation. More severe symptoms may include
weight loss, vomiting blood or bloody stools and difficulty swallowing.
Diagnosing stomach cancer often includes a physical exam, an endoscopic exam,
or a CT scan. There is also a lot of research into breath tests
as a minimally invasive way to identify stomach cancer.
There are several factors that can lead to gastric
cancer. It is twice as common in men, so there is a thought that estrogen may
aide in protecting women from the development of this form of cancer. The
presence of an infection called Helicobacter pylori (aka H. pylori) is a risk
factor in 65-80% of all gastric cancers. As with other cancers, smoking and
obesity are also correlated with an increased risk of stomach cancer. Diet is
not a proven factor, but some foods, like smoked foods, salt rich foods, red
meat, processed meats, and pickled vegetables appear to be associated with a
higher risk of stomach cancer. Lower rates of stomach cancer are tied to a
Mediterranean diet or a diet filled with fresh fruits, vegetables, citrus, and
antioxidant rich foods.
There there’s genetics. About 10% of cases run in families
and between 1-3% of cases are due to a inherited genetic syndrome, like hereditary
diffuse gastric cancer (HDGC) syndrome. HDGC is tied to a mutation of the CDH1
gene. This is the genetic flaw that led Nicole and I to learn so much about
stomach cancer. Current estimates are 1 in 9 million people carry this genetic
mutation, but these people have an 83% risk of developing HDGC. That
staggeringly high number is what led us to the decision to prophylactically remove
our stomachs 18 months ago. And sure enough, even though we showed no real
symptoms and had just had a clean endoscopy with 40 biopsies each, we both had
stage 1 HDGC. It’s so crazy to know that there was absolutely NOTHING we could
have done to prevent this. There was nothing we could have eaten or not eaten,
no magic pill we could’ve taken. One simple little mix-up in our genetic code
and we were destined to have cancer.
It’s hard sometimes to think of ourselves as stomach cancer survivors. We never underwent crippling chemotherapy or radiation treatments. We never even knew we officially had cancer until it had already been removed from our bodies. But in the most technical sense of the word, we are survivors. It’s crazy that in this day and age, with so many advances in science and medicine, that diagnosing stomach cancer early is still so difficult to do. For those of us who carry the CDH1 mutation, we have no real option for preventative screening, life without a stomach is our only shot at warding off cancer. How insane is that?!
It’s hard sometimes to think of ourselves as stomach cancer survivors. We never underwent crippling chemotherapy or radiation treatments. We never even knew we officially had cancer until it had already been removed from our bodies. But in the most technical sense of the word, we are survivors. It’s crazy that in this day and age, with so many advances in science and medicine, that diagnosing stomach cancer early is still so difficult to do. For those of us who carry the CDH1 mutation, we have no real option for preventative screening, life without a stomach is our only shot at warding off cancer. How insane is that?!
Hanging with our stomachless pals at Night of Healing! |
We had the honor of being at the
Spotlight on Gastric Cancer symposium at City of Hope in Los Angeles, CA this
weekend. We heard leading medical professionals talk about advancements in therapies
and surgical approaches and we also heard from patients who have fought this
awful disease with extraordinary courage, people who have lost loved ones after
a long battle and others who are preparing to undergo a prophylactic
total gastrectomy to stop cancer in its tracks. We bonded with people who can
be described as nothing less than amazing, people we’ve “known” online for
almost two years now but finally got to meet in person. And we got to share our
own story of the wonderfully normal life we lead now (I will share a video of our speech soon!). We left LA on Sunday with
nothing put hope for the future. You see the day is fast approaching when
Caden, Liam and Andy will be tested for the CDH1 mutation and there is a good chance
they will have to look stomach cancer square in the face and make some hard
choices. This is why Stomach Cancer Awareness
month means so much to us. We desperately need advancements in screening and
treatments so that our babies have better options than we did.
Later this week we will unveil our
new t-shirt design and start accepting orders. Just like last year, the funds
raised will be sent directly to Dr. Parry Guilford in New Zealand who is
currently working on an oral preventative chemo to kill off mutated stomach
cells, replacing the need for a total gastrectomy for CDH1 patients. We are so
excited for this year’s shirt, they look awesome! Last year we sold around 150
shirts and sent $1500 to Dr. Guilford, our goal this year is 200 shirts.
We can’t wait till we live in a
world where ALL cancer is easy to detect and cure. Until then, every November we will rock our periwinkle to
support stomach cancer awareness.
Monday, September 25, 2017
17 Months Post OP and Another Surgery
Me & Jessica at my first post mastectomy check-up! |
As always, thank you for your prayers and support. Please look for our next fundraiser to help support Parry Guilford’s research in November which is also stomach cancer awareness month. We plan to do another tshirt sale with a new design. We will post that information on our blog and on the Facebook pages soon. Also, we are so excited to speak at No Stomach for Cancer’s Night of Hope at City of Hope Cancer & Research Center in Los Angeles, CA in November. Please keep us in your prayers.Thanks for your continued support!
Thursday, August 3, 2017
14 Months Stomachless: An Update On Our CDH1 Journey
Wow, summer has flown by! We haven't updated in a while, so we wanted to let everyone know how the past couple of months have been and what's on the horizon.
The last post was at the beginning of May, six weeks after I (Jessica) underwent emergency surgery for a twist in my bowels. Honestly, this recovery was a lot worse than the recovery from the gastrectomy, probably because I was weaker going in. There is also now the theory that I probably had a small "kink" in my intestines the whole time that slowed digestion, which is why I never really experienced dumping syndrome or malabsorption issues like a lot of TG patients go through. After the emergency my bowel had been run twice and any kink there was gone, so my body finally felt the full effects of the TG on top of the bowel repair. Towards the end of May I started on digestive enzymes and started seeing some improvement in my ability to digest foods. I still I have to be careful with what I eat, mainly high fat foods and sugars, but most days are pretty good. My weight dipped to right around 100 pounds at the lowest, which for a 5ft 9in girl is tiny. But I'm actually back up to almost 115, so my doctor is super happy. Goal is to be 120 by the end of the year.
Mentally our family is doing better, but still recovering. My doctor's do feel that I'm suffering from anxiety and PTSD from the whole episode. They say it's very common for people who have near death experiences and medical emergencies to go through these issues after. Yes, I realize how lucky I am to be alive and I do realize that God worked together a series of miracles for me to get to UAB and the doctor I needed. But it was still traumatic to go from totally healthy on a Monday to near death on Tuesday. I've started medication and as a family we've started counseling and it really feels like we are mentally on the right track.
The next big concern on the horizon is our high risk of lobular breast cancer. The plan has been to screen us via mammograms and MRI's every 6 months (with MRI's being the most accurate form of imaging) until a time we were ready to pursue prophylactic mastectomy. Nicole and I both learned the hard way that due to our weight loss over the past year we no longer have enough body fat for accurate MRI imaging of our breasts. Nicole's last MRI showed a spot they wanted to take a closer look at. An ultrasound revealed another spot, so they decided to perform a biopsy. During the biopsy they discovered more small knots than what had been seen in the images. Luckily all the biopsies came back clean; however, after consulting with the breast surgeon it was determined that since imaging was not accurate and she was already dealing with these cysts and facing frequent biopsies that she should go ahead with the mastectomy now instead of the fall of 2018 like she had planned. So next week, August 9th, Nicole will undergo a prophylactic double mastectomy at UAB. Here's where things get a little tricky. The reason she wanted to wait till the fall of 2018 was because her husband Heath left for a year deployment to Kuwait on July 16th. Thankfully the first few weeks of his deployment he is still in the US at a base in Texas and will be able to come back to Alabama for her surgery and be with her for a few days after. We went through our gastrectomies together, but I'm glad we will be doing the mastectomies separately so that I can help take care of her once Heath has to leave. Hopefully she will be able to return to work in 4-6 weeks. Due to her small frame they can't do reconstruction right away, it would put to much strain on the skin. Instead, they will place expanded during the surgery and at set times over the next few months the expanders will be filled with saline to allow the skin tone to stretch and adjust. Once they reach a good size and the surgeon feels like her body is ready a second surgery will be performed to swap the expander for implants. The recovery from this second surgery is apparently a walk in the park compared to everything else. And with that, Nicole's journey to beat hereditary diffuse gastric cancer and lobular breast cancer will come to an end and she will have kicked cancer in the rear end!
We are also so excited that No Stomach for Cancer has invited us to take part in their Night of Hope at City of Hope Cancer & Research Center in Los Angeles. The event will take place in November, which is also Stomach Cancer Awareness Month, and we will be speaking during the patient spotlight. From the moment we were told we carried this mutation we knew we wanted to raise awareness for CDH1, the cancers associated with this mutation, and the importance of knowing your family history and going through the process of genetic testing. This gives us an opportunity to speak to medical professionals and share with them the patient side of gastric cancer. We also hope to do another fund raising effort in November to correspond with Stomach Cancer Awareness Month and send the money raised to Dr. Guilford in New Zealand again. His research into an oral preventive drug is such a promising ray of hope for us that our children may be able to avoid a stomachless life, so we want to support his efforts in any way we can.
Over the past year and a half we've gotten to know so many people with CDH1 mutations like us who face the same challenges we do. I can't even begin to tell you how wonderful it is to have a group of people who understand exactly what you mean when you talk about things like bile reflux, malabsorption or food getting stuck. We've found an amazing "stomachless family" who always laugh with us about the crazy things we encounter, offer encouragement on bad days, and cheer us on with each milestone reached. And as always, we are both so grateful for all the love, support, and prayers that have been poured out on us by all of our family, friends, and people who just run across this blog and send us an encouraging thought. Despite any setbacks we've faced in the past 14 months, we are both living happy lives and we know a lot of that is due to all the love and kindness you all have heaped on our families along this road. In the coming months we do ask for continued prayer, specifically in these areas:
1. A successful surgery and recovery for Nicole.
2. Heath's deployment and their family as they go through this year without him.
3. Continued physical and mental healing for both of our families.
4. Advances in research into CDH1 and the cancers associated with this genetic mutation.
We love each and everyone of you. From the bottom of our hearts, thank you for caring about us and our families, for understanding our limits and always encouraging us to push to be the best we can be.
Enjoying a sister night at New Kids on the Block |
Mentally our family is doing better, but still recovering. My doctor's do feel that I'm suffering from anxiety and PTSD from the whole episode. They say it's very common for people who have near death experiences and medical emergencies to go through these issues after. Yes, I realize how lucky I am to be alive and I do realize that God worked together a series of miracles for me to get to UAB and the doctor I needed. But it was still traumatic to go from totally healthy on a Monday to near death on Tuesday. I've started medication and as a family we've started counseling and it really feels like we are mentally on the right track.
The next big concern on the horizon is our high risk of lobular breast cancer. The plan has been to screen us via mammograms and MRI's every 6 months (with MRI's being the most accurate form of imaging) until a time we were ready to pursue prophylactic mastectomy. Nicole and I both learned the hard way that due to our weight loss over the past year we no longer have enough body fat for accurate MRI imaging of our breasts. Nicole's last MRI showed a spot they wanted to take a closer look at. An ultrasound revealed another spot, so they decided to perform a biopsy. During the biopsy they discovered more small knots than what had been seen in the images. Luckily all the biopsies came back clean; however, after consulting with the breast surgeon it was determined that since imaging was not accurate and she was already dealing with these cysts and facing frequent biopsies that she should go ahead with the mastectomy now instead of the fall of 2018 like she had planned. So next week, August 9th, Nicole will undergo a prophylactic double mastectomy at UAB. Here's where things get a little tricky. The reason she wanted to wait till the fall of 2018 was because her husband Heath left for a year deployment to Kuwait on July 16th. Thankfully the first few weeks of his deployment he is still in the US at a base in Texas and will be able to come back to Alabama for her surgery and be with her for a few days after. We went through our gastrectomies together, but I'm glad we will be doing the mastectomies separately so that I can help take care of her once Heath has to leave. Hopefully she will be able to return to work in 4-6 weeks. Due to her small frame they can't do reconstruction right away, it would put to much strain on the skin. Instead, they will place expanded during the surgery and at set times over the next few months the expanders will be filled with saline to allow the skin tone to stretch and adjust. Once they reach a good size and the surgeon feels like her body is ready a second surgery will be performed to swap the expander for implants. The recovery from this second surgery is apparently a walk in the park compared to everything else. And with that, Nicole's journey to beat hereditary diffuse gastric cancer and lobular breast cancer will come to an end and she will have kicked cancer in the rear end!
We are also so excited that No Stomach for Cancer has invited us to take part in their Night of Hope at City of Hope Cancer & Research Center in Los Angeles. The event will take place in November, which is also Stomach Cancer Awareness Month, and we will be speaking during the patient spotlight. From the moment we were told we carried this mutation we knew we wanted to raise awareness for CDH1, the cancers associated with this mutation, and the importance of knowing your family history and going through the process of genetic testing. This gives us an opportunity to speak to medical professionals and share with them the patient side of gastric cancer. We also hope to do another fund raising effort in November to correspond with Stomach Cancer Awareness Month and send the money raised to Dr. Guilford in New Zealand again. His research into an oral preventive drug is such a promising ray of hope for us that our children may be able to avoid a stomachless life, so we want to support his efforts in any way we can.
Over the past year and a half we've gotten to know so many people with CDH1 mutations like us who face the same challenges we do. I can't even begin to tell you how wonderful it is to have a group of people who understand exactly what you mean when you talk about things like bile reflux, malabsorption or food getting stuck. We've found an amazing "stomachless family" who always laugh with us about the crazy things we encounter, offer encouragement on bad days, and cheer us on with each milestone reached. And as always, we are both so grateful for all the love, support, and prayers that have been poured out on us by all of our family, friends, and people who just run across this blog and send us an encouraging thought. Despite any setbacks we've faced in the past 14 months, we are both living happy lives and we know a lot of that is due to all the love and kindness you all have heaped on our families along this road. In the coming months we do ask for continued prayer, specifically in these areas:
1. A successful surgery and recovery for Nicole.
2. Heath's deployment and their family as they go through this year without him.
3. Continued physical and mental healing for both of our families.
4. Advances in research into CDH1 and the cancers associated with this genetic mutation.
We love each and everyone of you. From the bottom of our hearts, thank you for caring about us and our families, for understanding our limits and always encouraging us to push to be the best we can be.
Monday, May 1, 2017
Setbacks and A Whole New Recovery
This post has been really hard for me to start writing, I think because
in some ways I still cannot wrap my mind around everything that has happened in
the past six weeks. Several people have asked about what took place and have
seen vague Facebook posts, so I thought it’d be best to lay it all there and
tell the whole story.
Our last post saw us both doing really well, we had just come back from
a cruise with our families, our weight had stabilized, we were both eating
whatever we wanted and living a normal life. Since that time we have actually
both gone through a hospital stay and surgery. In February Nicole gave us a
scare. She started having some pain in her lower abdomen and her CT scan was
not very clearly showing a problem. Her lab work looked good and her pain was
controlled by pain killers. But after several days of monitoring by our surgeon
at UAB and consulting with our surgeon at MD Anderson she underwent exploratory
surgery. Luckily, everything GI related looked great; however, her ovary was
quite large and discolored, so they did have to remove it. Pathology all came
back clear and after a week of recovery she was back to work and feeling like
herself again. Little did we know this scare was gearing us up for the big show
that would come a month later.
It really kind of began on Saturday, March 11th. I had an
odd pain in my left side, right over my J-tube scar. It came on after I scarfed
down a taco taking my son to baseball, so I dismissed it as gas pains. Over the
next day or so the pain got worse, extending to my whole abdomen and back and
causing some bloating. But it was never unbearable and by Tuesday I was back to
normal. I was incredibly busy that week helping organize and run a consignment
sale at my church, but I felt great. I was eating pizza, mini brownies, and
running all over the place with lots of energy. On Tuesday, March 21st
I woke up with the same pain in my left side and as the day wore on it became
increasingly worse, I was incredibly bloated, and started having spells of
nausea and vomiting. Trying to be Super Mom I loaded up my son and took him to
baseball practice, but by this time it was incredibly obvious that something
was wrong. My husband came to take me to the ER and a close friend came to take
Andy home. We told him bye and that we were going to go see the doctor and be
home that night. We were wrong.
Our first stop was to a freestanding ER center not far from our house.
It’s a new facility, super efficient with a CT machine and we’d been there
before when I had a GI bug and needed fluids. We figured I’d be evaluated, have
a CT and some pain meds and be told to follow up with my doctor the next day. As
we were there being evaluated the pain kept getting worse and worse and reached
an unbearable level when I drank the contrast material for the CT. At this
point my blood pressure also started to go up and up. This was alarming because my blood pressure is
usually a perfect 120/80, even during labor. They gave me morphine and three
rounds of Dilaudid for pain and that couldn’t even touch the pain. My CT results
showed something called mesenteric swirling, which is a sign of an internal
hernia or twisting of the bowel. The decision was made at that point to place
an NG tube down my nose to help relieve pressure and to transport me to a
hospital to be evaluated by a surgeon. And here is where a series of miracles
takes place.
We were asked what hospital we wanted to go to and immediately said
UAB. That’s the best facility in the state and Dr. Heslin, the surgical
oncologist we’ve worked with since returning home is based there. We were told
that UAB had no beds available, the ER was full, and they were diverting
patients to other facilities, so we’d need to select another hospital. We asked
for the second-best facility in the area for GI issues, St. Vincent’s and were
told the same thing. At this point they said they wanted to send me to UAB
West, a small hospital outside of Birmingham that had never seen someone like
me (a stomachless 32 year old). My husband, my hero, was not going to accept
this, he was making sure I got transferred to a hospital where they could
properly treat me. I was in extreme pain and after all those pain meds I was loopy,
so poor Steven had the weight of all this on him. After being in the ER for
several hours, his phone was dead and mine was down to 5% battery. We had no
clue we were going to end up in the ER all night, so we didn’t think to bring a
charger. For those who don’t know, Steven is a medical device sales rep and he
sells instruments used in some GI surgeries, so he has a work relationship with
our surgical oncologist as well. Since his phone was dead, he recalled Dr.
Heslin’s email from memory and sent a desperate email from my almost dead phone
asking what we needed to do. By some miracle, Dr. Heslin happened to pull out
his phone to check something and saw the email and immediately got on the phone
with Steven (who had wrangled a charger from a doctor at this point) and
started discussing lab results and symptoms. He also called UAB and made sure
they found a bed for me and arranged for an ambulance to come and get me. We
have learned that Dr. Heslin is the MAN at the UAB and if he wants something
done then it’s going to happen. Shortly after getting off the phone with Dr.
Heslin the ambulance arrived and off to UAB we went. When we arrived, we met
with one of the residents who took more blood to run repeat labs and sent me to
X-ray to make sure my NG tube was placed correctly. At this time he told us he
didn’t think I needed immediate surgery, so I told Steven to settle in and get
some rest. It was around 1:30am at this point and we were exhausted. TMI alert,
but I want any fellow CDH1/TG friends to be aware of every symptom. When I
returned from X-ray I felt like I needed to go to the restroom and when I did
it was all blood. At this point I knew something was really wrong. As I was
explaining this to the nurse the resident came back in and explained that my
labs had significantly worsened and that I was being taken to immediate
surgery. Everything moved so fast at this point, they started prepping me right
then and there and Dr. Heslin came in and could only really tell us at that
point that they believed my bowel was compromised. The last thing I really
remember is being placed on the table in the OR with Dr. Heslin holding my hand
and telling me everything was going to be okay.
Here is what we would find out. During my total gastrectomy in May
2016, a portion of my intestine was tacked up for the feeding tube to be
inserted. My bowels became twisted at this spot and my superior mesenteric
artery, the major source of blood supply for the intestines, had become twisted
as well. What my lab work was showing was sepsis and as soon as they opened me
up (and this was a full on open surgery, incision from sternum to below my belly
button) they saw that my entire bowel was gray and dying. After surgery my
family was told had I not made it to UAB when I did and been taken to the OR
when I was then I more than likely would have died. I had around a 25% chance
of survival when I entered the OR. Only a 25% chance of living. That’s hard for
me to even type. I almost lost my life, I almost left my baby boy, my husband,
my sister, my family and friends. It scares me so much to think about how close
I was to dying. And it makes me even more grateful that my husband could keep
his head clear and email Dr. Heslin during all the chaos of trying to get a
hospital to take me. As soon as the bowel was untwisted the blood rushed back
in and almost everything turned from gray to pink immediately. There were a few
spots that stayed dark and were concerning to the doctors, so the decision was
made to just close my skin incision, leave me on the ventilator in ICU, monitor
my labs and take me back into surgery the next afternoon to make sure all blood
supply had been reestablished and no part of the bowel had died. All of this
was explained to family, but of course I had no idea, so I wake up restrained
in recovery on a ventilator. Hands down the scariest moment of my life. They
kept me in the recovery area most of the day Wednesday so that Dr. Heslin could
monitor me between cases and later that afternoon I was moved to ICU. There was
a precious resident named Lindsay who stayed by my side all day and after a
while she asked if she could trust me not to pull out the breathing tube and
when I nodded yes she removed the restraints from my arms. That was amazing
because I could actually use sign language and write notes to my family, it was
so hard not to be able to communicate. They kept me pretty sedated while I was
on the ventilator, so most of those first two days are a fog to me. What I do remember
is being surrounded by the people I Iove the most: my husband, my big sister,
my parents, my sister-in-law Amanda, and the most amazing friends in the world,
Brittany and Kim. Praise God my labs continued to improve over those two days
and on Thursday afternoon I went back to the OR where everything looked great
and they were able to close me up and remove the ventilator. I returned to ICU
for the night and moved to a regular room the next day. I stayed in the
hospital over the weekend and was able to go home that Monday evening. I can’t
tell you how good it felt to be reunited with my little boy after such a scary
ordeal.
Without a doubt this recovery has been much harder on me than the
recovery from the total gastrectomy. I had been doing so well with eating prior
to this set back, I had a lot of energy and was maintaining my weight. Now I am
struggling to eat again, dealing with food aversions and what I would call
extreme dumping syndrome daily. Mornings are the worst for some reason, nothing
I eat or drink agrees with me, but by the afternoon (after my midday nap) I can
tolerate more foods. I have lost another 16 pounds and I am literally a walking
skeleton at this point. For the sake of transparency, I will also say that I am
really struggling mentally too. I have nightmares of waking up tied down and
being unable to speak, just like when I woke up from my first surgery. I get
overwhelmed very easily and cry more than I ever did after the TG. I think the
shock of it all has really taken its toll on me. We have made the decision to
seek counseling with a professional who handles trauma victims to try to get
past this hump. This has also been incredibly difficult for Steven and our
sweet Andy. We thought Andy was handling everything well until there was a mix-up
at school and his number didn’t get called during carpool, he thought we forgot
him or were back in the hospital and had a complete meltdown. His teacher also
told me that some days he doesn’t play on the playground, he just sits beside
her and will kind of snuggle up to her. Hearing this completely broke my heart.
My sweet little boy is always so full of life and loves to run and play, but
there are days he just needs to sit and get extra love. He’s so much like
Steven, he puts on this brave face and holds everything in until he just can’t
hold it anymore. So, we’ve also decided to seek some counseling for him. He’s
been through so much this past year and we want him to be able to talk about
his feelings and not hold on to things that hurt him.
I don’t want to end this post on a negative note. Despite all the bad
the past month has held, we’ve seen God’s hand caring for us at our lowest
point. I am a firm believer that God will give you more than you can handle at
points in your life and these unbearable moments are when we learn true
dependency on Him. We also believe that we serve a loving God and that these
things don’t happen to punish us or because we weren’t faithful enough. My
husband reminds me all the time that we live in a fallen creation and we can’t
let the circumstances of this world define us, we must stay firm in our faith
and let God’s hope shine through us even when we’re deeply entrenched in pain
and suffering. At the end of the day, I look back on that night in the ER and
realize that the things of this world were lining up for me to not receive the
treatment I needed and to die; however, God lined up a series of events that
would get me exactly where I needed to be, when I needed to be there and
ultimately I was spared. On my absolute worst days, all I have to do is look at
Steven and Andy and I’m relieved to be here with them, no matter how awful I
physically feel.
We have also seen a tremendous outpouring of love and compassion during
this ordeal. Every need we’ve had has been met before we could even speak it. God
has truly put us on a path and surrounded us with an amazing group of people
who love us and lift us up in our hardest times.
Hopefully our next post will find us all healthy and in great spirits!
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
8 Month Post-Op Update
We realized it had been a while since we posted an update on our
post-op progress. In all honesty, we’ve
been so busy living and enjoying life that the past few months have flown by. We
each have battled some hiccups and bad days along the way, but for the most
part life is normal, we just eat a little bit different than most people.
We are 8 months post total gastrectomy, which is so crazy. January actually
marks a year since this process officially began. I met with the
geneticist for the first time at the end of January 2016. Who knew it would
lead to this wild ride?!
Merry Christmas from the Bahamas! |
So what have we been up to since our last post 4 months ago? We have
been chasing kids, working, spending time with family and friends, enjoying the
holidays. We even took a cruise to the Bahama’s a week before Christmas! The
trip was much needed and so much fun. The boys played with dolphins, hung out
at the Atlantis resort, ran all over the beach in Nassau, had breakfast with
the Cat in the Hat, and played their hearts out. Nicole and I were a little
worried about losing weight on the trip because we were so active, but we
actually ended up eating really well and it all balanced out. It was a great
way to close out a hard year.
Our boys health has kept us occupied recently too. My son Andy was
diagnosed with juvenile arthritis right before Christmas, so we’ve been going
through testing to try to narrow down his specific form and adjusting to weekly
Methotrexate injections. Nicole’s oldest son Caden broke his kneecap in a
wrestling match a week and a half ago. At first they thought his femur was also
broken and that surgery might be required, but luckily an MRI revealed the
damage was not as bad and for now he is just immobilized to hopefully heal the
kneecap. Nicole’s house has also been hit by strep and the stomach bug over the
past few days, both boys have been sick. So she’s donning masks and gloves,
spraying Lysol like crazy, and we are all praying she doesn’t come down with
either. Unfortunately we found out on New Year’s Day that people without a
stomach can still get the “stomach bug” since it actually occurs in the
intestines. I got sick that morning and ended up in the ER getting fluids that
night for dehydration. Way to ring in 2017! According to the GI these things
will be “exceptionally violent” in us as our intestines are more sensitive due
to the amount of work they do. I had a lot of abdominal pain for days
afterwards and found out it was actually from swelling that happens in the
intestines when you have GI bug. Since our intestines are more sensitive and we
no longer have any real fat padding in the abdomen, we will just be more aware
of the swelling that takes place. So we really need this bug to quickly leave
the McDonald house and Nicole’s immune system to fight it off.
Around the time of our last post point Nicole was having trouble with
her incision not closing. She underwent a surgery on September 28th
where the wound was cleaned out and a wound vac was placed. The wound vac was a
pretty painful experience for Nicole; however, it was effective. After a few
weeks with the vac on the wound started to close and it is now fully closed and
healed. Nicole has also had some issues with fat malabsorption and was dealing
with some sickness after eating foods with a higher fat content. She started
taking digestive enzymes with high fat meals to help her body absorb more
nutrients from the food and they have really helped her out. They aren’t 100%
and there are times she has issues with foods, but for the most part the
enzymes have made a big difference in her ability to absorb and digest food
properly.
Stricture (a narrowing at the area where the esophagus and small
intestine were joined) turned out to be an issue for us both. I had dilations
performed in August and September for what was called a “significant stricture.”
At my first dilation the area was pretty much closed off and I even had food
trapped in suture wire that was left from surgery. I had a really awful
reaction to the first dilation and they felt it was because the area went from
barely open to wide open and it was just a little bit aggressive for my system.
The second dilation went much better and I finally hit my stride eating and
maintaining my weight. I was supposed to have a third performed in October, but
I was doing so well at the time it was deemed we’d wait until a problem arose
instead of putting me through another procedure. I started having an increase
in swallowing difficulties in early December so we set-up another dilation for
January 13th. Turns out it was a lot worse than expected, the area
was almost completely closed again and a lot of scar tissue had to be cut away
before the balloon could even be place to dilate the area. I had some issues
for a few days after with nausea and reflux much like the first dilation, but
it passed pretty quickly this time. I will undergo another dilation on February
3rd to hopefully prevent the drastic closure that happened before.
Nicole also had some difficulty with food getting stuck and underwent a
dilation on December 28th and luckily that provided some relief for
her. Since strictures can be pretty persistent they are going to perform
another dilation on her tomorrow (January 25th) to hopefully stay on
top of the issue. One cool thing that both of our EGD’s revealed is that we are
both starting to form our own little stomach pouch under the anastomosis. How
cool is it that our bodies can adapt that way?!
Since we both had stage 1 hereditary diffuse gastric cancer at the time
of surgery, we are being monitored every 6 months for any sign of recurrence in
the abdominal area. We both have had CT’s and everything came back clean! We
will repeat scans again this summer. Lobular breast cancer is the next big
concern we have to face and a prophylactic double mastectomy is on the horizon
for both of us. We are being monitored every six months via mammogram or MRI
(we both just had clean mammograms over the past month). Nicole is leaning
towards having surgery in the summer of 2018. Steven and I want to evaluate my
health around the two year mark to see if another pregnancy via IVF with
genetic screening is possible. If so, we will pursue that route and I will have
the mastectomy after having another child. If another child not possible, I will go
ahead with the mastectomy sooner.
Our silly boys enjoying a train ride to the North Pole! |
Our fundraiser we held in November was very successful! We raised over
$1500 to send to Dr. Guilford’s research center in New Zealand. Around the time
we sent the donation we got a really cool update from his lab. They have
actually been able to grow miniature stomachs that will allow them field test
the medication in the lab. Our boys may be able to bypass this whole TG thing! One
of the ladies in our CDH1 group collected photos of everyone’s children and
took them to Dr. Guilford’s and they are now up in the lab to remind him of why
he does what he does. When we emailed him telling him we wanted to raise money
for his lab, his response to us was “we are confident your children will have
better options.” Talk about goosebumps! In the future we will be doing other
fundraisers for his research and we hope to have the same positive response
that we had to our first effort.
As we approach the one year mark it seems like our bodies are really
starting to adjust to this new life. They say it can take up to three years for
everything to fully settle into place, but most of the big stuff will resolve
in the first year. We probably won’t post a ton going forward, just because
there shouldn’t be a lot of action as far as our TG healing goes. But we will
posts as milestones approach, as news and developments about CDH1, TG, or
HDGC/lobular breast cancer occur, any fundraising efforts we undergo or if
anything crazy happens further into the recovery process. As another CDH1
friend and blogger Marne put it “the best thing about life after TG is LIFE.”
So we intend to live it to the fullest, to enjoy every moment with our
families, and to offer love and support to others who have to walk this path. We
can always be reached by commenting on this blog, reaching out to us on Facebook
or emailing us at Jessica.j.sasser913@gmail.com
or mc0826@hotmail.com.
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